Have you ever felt like you are surrounded by a million people yet when it matters the most you are all alone?
Somewhere along the way I changed from the person I used to be, carefree, happy, living in the moment, doing the things that made me happiest, not caring what people said or did. I struggle to be happy, the little things that used to make me happy seem to bring me discontent, I try to mask my unhappiness but the harder I try the more it seems to rear its ugly head.
Maybe I expect too much from my family, friends, those that mean the most to me. I give them all I have to give, sometimes even more. Never asking for much in return.
The past few months have been a battle to maintain the balance of life, work, relay, family & friends. I have been pulled in many different directions, sometimes, all at once but I managed to do keep it all in check burning the candle at both ends. But I finally reached a point where I could no longer keep the scales from tipping...going from an euphoric high to the lowest of lows.
This weekend I learned that I can only give so much without receiving anything in return! I had very little expectations but was looking for some little things from family, friends & associates...I got nothing! Everyone seems to have their own lives when it comes to me & the things I need...so I will be giving up many of the things that used to bring me happiness in hopes of once again bringing balance back into my life before the scale tips too far left with no hope of ever finding the middle again...
Once again a cry for help goes unnoticed..."Never ignore someone who cares for you because someday you'll realize you've lost a diamond while you were busy collecting stones!"
